I've been encouraged by many people to start this blog so that other's can understand the struggles I have been going through and the adventure that is to come. I have put off doing this for many reasons, first and foremost being - I am not a writer. It is hard for me to put down on paper (or in this case, a blog) my thoughts and feelings without sounding like I'm complaining or whining. Talking, no problem. Writing, problem.
As most of you know, and for those that don't, I will be having a double joint jaw replacement on February 13th in Oakland. The procedure could last anywhere from 8-12 hours and a night in the hospital. The company that is making the custom-made titanium implants is located in Ventura, CA. If you have time to look at their site and at the patient brochure to see what's involved, please do so as it's rather interesting reading (www.tmjconcepts.com/patbro.html).
I've been experiencing jaw problems for the past 5 1/2 years. I have had 9 surgeries which include arthroscopic, arthrocentises, 2 condylotomies, and flushing of the joints. I've been through TMJ classes, physical therapy and a lot of pain. What's been puzzling to my doctor is the fact that I show no signs of clenching or grinding of the teeth (probably because I don't), no signs of any other bone disorders, yet I have splintering of the jaw bones and hair-like materials present in the joint spaces. Basically, my joints and disks are completely shot and there are no other alternatives to fixing them expect total joint replacement.
I am ready for this chapter of our lives to be done and the next to begin. I am tired of the constant pain, headaches, neck and shoulder pain. I'm tired of being too tired to do things with my kids. I'm ready to start enjoying life again and eating regular food. As the days pass and things get worse, I have a hard time imagining what the future will be like with no pain. When it's a constant struggle just to function on a regular basis, I wonder if I'll remember how to function normally again? This new chapter in our lives is about to begin and I for one can't wait to see how it turns out.
Hey Sherri! You're a good writer! Much better than you think you are. It's an interesting topic, you share your thoughts candidly, and your story flows well. Looking forward to reading more and joining you on the journey- thanks for sharing it!
ReplyDeleteI had no idea you were still struggling with this! I remember your first surgery, after your son headbutted you, seeing you with your face swollen and your jaw wired shut was a bit traumatizing to say the least. My husband is supposed to have his jaw broken in six places and then wired shut and after seeing you at target he said "No way!". Do you still live in the same house?If you do, I'm not that far away...so if you need any help or just someone to visit with I'm here for you. I am so sorry that you have had to go through all of this, you are incredibly strong. Thank you for sharing your story, i agree with the above posting...you are a much better written than you give yourself credit!
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